Life, the Universe and Emptiness

So now I'm wondering if I made the right decision. . .I'm freaking out. Why would I want to go to China? I don't know anyone there. I have no connections. . .I have to recreate myself--AGAIN!! I had enough trouble with that coming here. I mean, wouldn't it have been easier to just move down to Atlanta and live with Kim? Probably. Of course, that probably would have meant a bunch of crappy interviews and such. I'm too lazy to stay in America. Is that it? I mean, that's the basic reason that I didn't transfer from here. I wanted to. I was so desperately miserable that I started looking into other schools. But I was too lazy to fill out applications. The only reason I have this job in China now is because I was bored last semester and filled out the job applications. I never even wrote up a resume. I'm so laaaazy.

On a happier note, my Mom came in yesterday, and I left school early to go surprise her at the airport. And Anjuli remembered me! She was so happy to see me. And today as I was leaving, she didn't want me to leave. That's probably what brought all this sadness on. I love her so much.